I promise I'm not weird

I am in a new place where I know nothing. I went from knowing everything to knowing nothing. It's kinda refreshing. I know that God has me in this place for a reason. What I don't know why exactly but I'm lookin forward to seeing how I will be changed in the end. I confidence atleast right now I do. I can no longer rely on anything or anyone to fulfill me. God is my only source for strength, joy, and confidence. I know that this is all apart of a grand plan he has for my life. It's time for me to trust him, with everything that I have and everything I am.

Here I go, diving head first.

I am in Reno

So today made two weeks in living in Reno. I went to the movies by myself for the first time and I have to admit it wasn't that bad. I saw Step Up 3D and I wish I could dance like that! GAH! lol after watching the movie and hearing everyone talkin about how dancing was their escape and how they felt so free. It made me wish I had something like that. A talent I had to escape life, but not just to escape but to get closer to God. To have the peacefulness that you can only experience in Gods presence.

So being in Reno and not knowing anyone is weird but then again its really cool. It gives me a chance to start over with friends and stuff but then again at the same time starting over is alot harder than you think. Especially when you don't know anyone. I just keep thinkin what life is gunna be like once I have friends and "life" begins again. Makin new friends and getting settled into a new place takes a lil while. I guess school will help and hopefully I'll find a job soon too.

P.S. Be careful what you wish for...it just might come true. :)

All kinds of emotions

Rambling blog time

I have been goin through all kinds emotions. Sad, happy, trapped, free... I am happy that I have an amazing opportunity to start over, in a sense, but then again I don't know anyone out here yet so I wish I still had my friends to hang out with, somebody to just chill out with and have fun. I know it takes some time to get to know people and once I start school hopefully things will work out a lil better too. I guess I'm kinda ready for life to begin, lol. I hope to be gettin a job soon so that will help. Skype is my best friend right now, lol I've been able to keep in touch with some of my friends which has been nice. oh and of course Gilmore Girls keeps me goin lol. LIFE! UGH! lol what the hell is really goin on? I just wanna be happy with life now, I don't wanna keep thinkin that life is gunna get better or things are gunna be different once I get something I don't have now. I need to chill out and take things one day at a time. God is here and I just need to let go of things, but it's so hard for me. I feel that if I just hold on a lil tighter then things wont be so bad, but really I need to let go. I have problems lettin go. I don't think its really hit me that I am thousands of miles away from my friends... I love it but then again every now and then I wonder why the hell I'm here? I know God has a plan but I really wish I knew what was in it... I don't know whats goin on. I don't like how I don't know what my next step is. like I don't have a long term plan, as of right now I'm just here. I know that I'm supposed to be finding out who I am in Christ and stuff but I feel like that findin who I am in Christ doesn't come by goin to counseling and reading books, its by living life and trusting Him in every step. (On a side note, I do enjoy singing and I kinda wish I could just go somewhere and sing all day long) I think I need to calm down and relax, I need to enjoy this time and just trust God, even though I'm goin a tad insane just trusting... lol I am goin to have a positive attitude about stuff and things will get better. :)

Reno, NV

LOVE IT! So far so good. I just got here a couple days ago and so I'm still gettin used to things but everything is goin great so far.

I start school next week. Kinda nervous but yet excited to be in a new place, I hope I can find my classes lol. I'm goin this week to finalize everything.

I love not having a job right now. I realllllyyyyy don't wanna get a job justttt yet lol butttt I need one so I don't go crazy.