I dont really have a particular reason to write this blog except for the simple fact that I am in a coffee shop andddd it just seems like the right thing to do on my computer. I feel so cool hahaha!
LIfe is finally slowing down a lil bit. I am getting more sleep and thats helped me keep a handle on things. I am so ready to be done with school its not even funny. I have made up my mind, and now Im ready to start school that is gunna make some money in the end. Im excited.
I really miss my family. Especially now since my dad had his hip replaced. I am ready for the beach and time to spend as a family before school starts and I cant really go home for nine months. It will only be for a few days sadly but I think it will be good. Im flying in early so I can see my grandparents too. I hate that as soon as I start a relationship with my grandparents I move away. I lived in Reno and now Kansas city. Its awkward enough for me now, I do wish I lived closer to my family.
I dont know if its spring time fever or what but I am really missing home lately. Ive been thinking about how much time I could spend seeing my grandparents, spend time with my sister, and just be with my own parents. Im not gunna lie, Ive thought about how I'd really like to move home for a while. As much as there are things about the south that arent great, there is something about it that is just right. Its home to me. Its what Ive grown up with. I think it would be nice to live near my family. I miss home. Dont get me wrong though, I love living in other places but Im tired of being away from my family. I hate that I feel so alone. If I was married, it wouldnt be so hard because I would be with my husband. But being single and doin life, I'd like being with my family. It would be nice to move into a place with my sister and start life in Baton Rouge.
I can now have a relationship with my parents instead of the constant fighting. Yes there are still things that need to be worked on but we can do that now. We can work on life issues if I live closer. Ive thought about this for the past few days and the more I think about it, the more I like the idea. I have a friend who is about to finish hair school as well, we could open a place together or something, who knows? But I love going to LSU football games and there is just something about living in the south. I know there are downsides to living in the south but there are many more meaningful upsides as well.
I have plenty of time to actually think about it. I know Im not goin anywhere for the next year so thing could change but for the first time its an actually thought I've considered. This time last year, there was no way in hell you'd hear me say I'd thought about moving back home. But now, maybe. I think I could do it.
Sunday, April 22
Sunday, April 8
Download of this thing called life
So I haven't blogged in a while and I probably should have to keep me sane. Hence why I'm blogging today which will probably be similar to a blog vomit, lol.
Things going on in my life and keep rolling around in my head- Im ending IHOP, Im starting hair school, Im moving in with my best friend, Im losing hours at work, Im still single, I live in kansas city.
Debrief and break down of all of those statements.
I know that just because Im finishing my schooling at IHOP doesnt mean my music is ending or I wont worship anymore but the chances of me being apart of a worship team, in general not even just IHOP, are very slim just because it never works out. I am kind of sad about that. I love worship and I am going to miss this. Plus the people I have met and the friends I have arent gunna be the same. Especially over the summer, people are leaving and not comin back, and just the fact that Im not gunna be around my friendships are gunna change. I wouldnt say I have super close and tight friendships but at the same time the friends I have at school, I am going to miss.
Starting hair school. Wow. Everyday it hits me more and more. This is going to be a huge life step for me. The fact my hair and make up have to be done before I get school by 8. That in its self is goin to be alot for me. I am looking forward to it because its something new and different but at the same time, I am a lil nervous. This is a new direction in life. I dont know about it so its hard for me to get super excited about it. I really think it will be fun but there is alot I need to learn. Then the whole fact that after I get my license I will be able to make a living. I will be able to support myself... wow. Thats just crazy lol I love that idea but then at the same time deep inside Im slightly freaking out lol
Moving in my with best friend. I cant lie, Im really excited about this. She's really awesome and I love her. Its kinda sad because there are times when we hang out and then she leaves me and I feel kinda lost. She and I are together all the time and yet we never get sick of each other, hahaha the best part is we just make up reasons why we "HAVE" to see each other or hang out, lol. Its pretty great. Plus we will keep each other accountable with healthy eating habits and what not. She's awesome and a great blessing to my life. I really think its gunna be a great move.
Losing hours at work isnt something Im happy about. Im actually really kinda nervous about it. Its hard to get my numbers up at work if I work the last few hours in the day. I will still be able to work on sundays but still Im worried that it just wont be enough. I'm thinking I might start babysitting on the side as well. I could babysit Saturday and Sunday nights.
Okay so this one comes and goes. Right now I do wish I wasnt single. Not that Im not happy with my life. It's just that there are times where I wish I had a guy by my side. I dont really have guy friends around and guys just add another dimension to life, lol. I have been reading a great book and I do enjoy my single time and Im not waiting for someone before I start my life. I am making the most of the time of my life now. There are just times I wish I had a guy in my life to share things with.
Living in Kansas City isnt bad. I like it for the most part, its just hard sometimes being away from family and friends. Its times like today where I really wish I could be with my family and enjoy the holidays together. I cant not think about how my grandparents are older and Im missing time with them. For years I didnt have a choice and we missed out on years of holidays together but now that I actually could see them I cant because I live too far away to just drive and see them for the day. Im not gunna lie, I really hate that. I almost get angry at the fact that the one thing I held so dearly and to my heart I had taken away, family.
So there you have it. My life in a nutshell-ish. OH WAIT for funzies... I think its hilarious that the one place I wouldnt expect to get blocked on facebook or have people who dont actually like me would be at IHOP. You would think that cause its a huge church place and Jesus is here that people would be different, but nope. I know of two people who have blocked me on facebook and avoid me like the plague. I find it unbelievely funny. I mean really, really? I came from a super small town with one high school and no matter what went down you always keep your friends close and your eniemies closer. I had never heard of anyone actually blockin people on facebook before I came here and the fact that I would get blocked of all people. I mean SERIOUSLY?! Im not trying to boast about myself whatsoever but I am like the #1 person who tries to keep unity and keep everyone happy, even if I cant stand you, I will be nice to you. I wont attack you, unless you attack first. I dont start fights, BUT just for the record I will fight back if you start it, lol.
Anyways, thats my life and now you are all caught up. And by you are all caught up, Im really talking to myself for when I go back and read this in a few months, lol. I realize no one really reads my blog ahahaha, but if you are one of the ones that do, I thank you and I hope you enjoy my life drama, lol.
Happy Easter! :)
Things going on in my life and keep rolling around in my head- Im ending IHOP, Im starting hair school, Im moving in with my best friend, Im losing hours at work, Im still single, I live in kansas city.
Debrief and break down of all of those statements.
I know that just because Im finishing my schooling at IHOP doesnt mean my music is ending or I wont worship anymore but the chances of me being apart of a worship team, in general not even just IHOP, are very slim just because it never works out. I am kind of sad about that. I love worship and I am going to miss this. Plus the people I have met and the friends I have arent gunna be the same. Especially over the summer, people are leaving and not comin back, and just the fact that Im not gunna be around my friendships are gunna change. I wouldnt say I have super close and tight friendships but at the same time the friends I have at school, I am going to miss.
Starting hair school. Wow. Everyday it hits me more and more. This is going to be a huge life step for me. The fact my hair and make up have to be done before I get school by 8. That in its self is goin to be alot for me. I am looking forward to it because its something new and different but at the same time, I am a lil nervous. This is a new direction in life. I dont know about it so its hard for me to get super excited about it. I really think it will be fun but there is alot I need to learn. Then the whole fact that after I get my license I will be able to make a living. I will be able to support myself... wow. Thats just crazy lol I love that idea but then at the same time deep inside Im slightly freaking out lol
Moving in my with best friend. I cant lie, Im really excited about this. She's really awesome and I love her. Its kinda sad because there are times when we hang out and then she leaves me and I feel kinda lost. She and I are together all the time and yet we never get sick of each other, hahaha the best part is we just make up reasons why we "HAVE" to see each other or hang out, lol. Its pretty great. Plus we will keep each other accountable with healthy eating habits and what not. She's awesome and a great blessing to my life. I really think its gunna be a great move.
Losing hours at work isnt something Im happy about. Im actually really kinda nervous about it. Its hard to get my numbers up at work if I work the last few hours in the day. I will still be able to work on sundays but still Im worried that it just wont be enough. I'm thinking I might start babysitting on the side as well. I could babysit Saturday and Sunday nights.
Okay so this one comes and goes. Right now I do wish I wasnt single. Not that Im not happy with my life. It's just that there are times where I wish I had a guy by my side. I dont really have guy friends around and guys just add another dimension to life, lol. I have been reading a great book and I do enjoy my single time and Im not waiting for someone before I start my life. I am making the most of the time of my life now. There are just times I wish I had a guy in my life to share things with.
Living in Kansas City isnt bad. I like it for the most part, its just hard sometimes being away from family and friends. Its times like today where I really wish I could be with my family and enjoy the holidays together. I cant not think about how my grandparents are older and Im missing time with them. For years I didnt have a choice and we missed out on years of holidays together but now that I actually could see them I cant because I live too far away to just drive and see them for the day. Im not gunna lie, I really hate that. I almost get angry at the fact that the one thing I held so dearly and to my heart I had taken away, family.
So there you have it. My life in a nutshell-ish. OH WAIT for funzies... I think its hilarious that the one place I wouldnt expect to get blocked on facebook or have people who dont actually like me would be at IHOP. You would think that cause its a huge church place and Jesus is here that people would be different, but nope. I know of two people who have blocked me on facebook and avoid me like the plague. I find it unbelievely funny. I mean really, really? I came from a super small town with one high school and no matter what went down you always keep your friends close and your eniemies closer. I had never heard of anyone actually blockin people on facebook before I came here and the fact that I would get blocked of all people. I mean SERIOUSLY?! Im not trying to boast about myself whatsoever but I am like the #1 person who tries to keep unity and keep everyone happy, even if I cant stand you, I will be nice to you. I wont attack you, unless you attack first. I dont start fights, BUT just for the record I will fight back if you start it, lol.
Anyways, thats my life and now you are all caught up. And by you are all caught up, Im really talking to myself for when I go back and read this in a few months, lol. I realize no one really reads my blog ahahaha, but if you are one of the ones that do, I thank you and I hope you enjoy my life drama, lol.
Happy Easter! :)
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