My Man :)

- has strong, thick, good-lookin shoulders
- has an Amazing smile
- great sense of humor
- eyes I can get lost in for days
- his arms are a place I feel safe
- tall enough where I can place my head in his chest
- loves me with all my flaws
- someone who never stops surprising me
- someone I can trust to lead without being too pushy
- someone who wants lots of kids


to be continued... :)

ahh back home

Well I'm back in the states and oh what a joy, lol. I'm to be glad back but yet I still miss everyone. Not having to put up with dumb shit with retarded ppl at home was nice too. So Monday morning I had to get right back in to the swing of things with school and then work on Tuesday. I'm ready for my sister to come home because once again life at home isn't at its best. Apparently I've gain too much weight for my clothes so my parents feel the need to let me know that I should go buy new clothes. Also I haven't put away all of my laundry because I had a frickin ton and I've been super busy and haven't been home a whole lot since I'm workin all day and have homework. So I'm slackin according to my parents. This morning, the first thing my mom said to me was that I need to get on top of things and that i was slackin and then as I'm walkin out of the door both of my parents commented on my pants sayin I needed to get a bigger pair. Just the way I wanna start my mornings. Thanks guys. Ugh! I'm so tempted to just stop eating all together, even though I know I shouldn't but it's lil comments like those that make me feel horrible bout my self. And not to mention this morning I actually put time and effort into what I was wearing. I wore make up and jewelry which is rare.

Anyways on the bright side of things, I could be gettin a raise but im not gunna hold my breathe. It would be really nice but we'll see. Also I have an A in my econ class so far and that's with a missed 10 pt quiz. I got a 120 on a quiz with no bonus... hmmmm oh well I'm not complaining. I hope this class will help my GPA a lil bit.

That's another thing. After this past year of college my parents kept askin if I was okay with my GPA. I said yes multiple times. I'm not the A student like my other siblings and I'm fine with that. I'm not gunna beat myself up because I didn't get a 4.0. That's great for my older sibs but that's not me. I never have been and I don't think I ever will be. I'm not lookin down on myself, I'm just being honest. I'm goin to do my best but sometimes my best isn't A quality.

AHHHHH! That's kinda how I feel right now... So this weekend I don't have any plans and I'm considering goin to the movies...by myself... lol

June 10, 2010

I go through waves where I cant wait to be home and then when I never wanna leave costa. I know I should really enjoy my time here but its so hard sometimes, especially when everyone makes fun of me about how I talk, where I live, and even what I say. Even the freakin girls who live 45 mins from me. Im sorry I have a southern drawl. I cant help it. Ugh it pisses me off so much. I cant say anything without someone commenting on it being stupid, not makin sense or how I sound when I say it. I don’t even wanna talk anymore, cause I know im just gunna be made fun of so theres no point in it.

But then I realize that im not gunna be able to hang out with theses girls like am now so I should enjoy it. some of the girls are really sweet and I love them to death and I am really gunna miss them. My roommate is awesome and we have alotta things in common which is great. And then there is also another girl who is the sweetest thing I’ve ever met. I really am gunna miss her a lot. She has a great personality.

I guess just being together with everyone for two weeks is startin to wear on me. Im really startin to miss my family and friends and some things that the girls are doin are getting on my nerves. But I guess that’s what happens when you spend just about every minute of everyday with 8 girls with ages from 17 to 23. Sigh…. well I just have one week left I can make it. I just keep thinking positive thoughts.

June 7, 2010

So today I finally spoke out loud that I was mad at God. I was so mad at him for so many different things, some I never said aloud and others that bothered me. One of the biggest reasons was over Pete. Im not gunna lie, he told me he was “feeling that God was leading him” toward another girl, it didn’t really begin to bother me til bout a week later. I guess I was in shock but now im really hurt. He probably hurt me the most over any other guy. I apparently allowed myself to go to far with my feelings, but partly because I had talked to my dad and he was okay with things. I really trusted my dad and therefore trusted Pete. I don’t really know what to think anymore, but I know dad did talk to him and from the expression on my moms face, I don’t think my dad held back anything that needed to be said.

After I actually said out loud that I was mad at God then I immediately broke down in tears in front of everyone, kinda sucked. Oh well I got it out and felt a whole lot better, especially after mrs joy prayed for me. So im doin better now but Im still workin through some stuff here and there.

Number Two

June 6, 2010

So last night I slept horrible! I tossed and turned, woke up here and there to random noises or even me just turning over. Yesterday we went to Domical, which was cool. We did shoppin and hung out on the cave beach a lil. Im not too big on getting in the ocean but everyone else had fun so that was good. I got some cool stuff like a big square fabric thing that you can wear however ya want. Its purplish and pinkish with a gold background so I hope to wear it to a LSU game or two.

So yesterday when we got back we had barely any water pressure and what water pressure we had was cold. I washed my face and changed into clean clothes and prayed that we’d have water pressure that was warm in the morning well needless to say I had a wonderful COLD shower this morning. It was great. I recommend it to anyone who is really lookin to wake up lol.

Im really startin to miss my family… I know I should enjoy my time here but there are just times where I was at home with my mom and dad. I’ve basically grown up with it being just us and I kinda miss it. I really cant wait to go home and spend the night with my grandparents. I miss them like there is no tomorrow. There’s nothing better than ya grandma lovin up on ya. :)

My girly girl side is startin to show a good bit now. After the whole work out thing and since im still sore now, im not too fond of it. Id rather do something else. Workin out isn’t what I don’t like. It’s the fact that you work out so hard that your sore and can barely move for the next 4 days! I enjoy workin out and not being sore all over my complete body. The whole “Lets go play in the mudd” isn’t on my fun list. I don’t really care to go shave in the waterfall. And id reallyyy not like to go white water rafting, especially since we’ve had so much rain. I don’t think its fun to go play in raging water with big rocks in them, sorry, id like to live. Lol

Ive made it through one week, only two more to go. I know they’ll go by quicker than I think but idk… I guess im just in that mood to go home. I miss my family.

a couple at once....

June 4, 2010

I don’t have internet all the time so ive decided that im goin to write what I want on word and then transfer it. So here we go! (if its crazy my sorry, lol)

Ive been here in Costa Rica for about a week now and its quite an adjustment. Im not big on goin all country so its kinda a stretch for me but im makin it. There’s just things that I’ve gotta get used to like wakin up to howlin monkeys at the crack of dawn. I haven’t decided if I like howlin monkeys better than a rooster, lol. I don’t like ever knowing what time it is. Its okay sometimes but im so used to being on a schedule that it’s a lil annoying but its not that bad. Its kinda like livin when Gustav hit, except I had hot water back then. Nothing ever dries outside. If you get wet or sweaty that’s it, your clothes are wet. Its been rainin here so much, that they don’t have enough time to dry but also its so HUMID! GOOD LORD! I just thought it was bad at home, oh no! Gah! Its so nasty alllll the timeeee! The dogs here are so funny lookin. They are all mutts and only God knows what they are mixed with. There’s one dog that has the body of a winner dog but the face of a lab… so weird. Lol

So one of the girls, actually two of them are dancers, but one of them loves to braid hair and she likes to do all kinds of crazy stuff. Basically everyday she braids two or more of the girls hair. I have to resist askin her to do mine just cause otherwise she’d do mine everyday, lol. She asked if I was tender headed and I said yes, but she can pull as hard as she wanted cause my sister used to do mine and she would give me a face lift so it didn’t bother me lol. I cant wait to get back to the states and go spend the whole day with my hair dresser. My roots were pretty bad when I left and they are goin to be even worse when I get back lol. Cut, color, wax. Ahhhh prefect! I really hope his stuff for facials is in cause thennnnnn it would be AH-MAZINGGGG! :)

As far as guys go, im doin pretty good. I don’t really have the need to talk to anyone. Except one of my really old close friends who told me that he was goin in the air force! Im SO extremely proud of him.

Alrighty well I think that im good, lol. Ive never wrote so much lol im so glad I could write some though casue it feels great to just BLAHHHH lol