God is pretty cool

I love how God blesses us. It makes me so happy! lol I love the surprises too cause I never know when imma be blessed. I wish I could count all the blessing that God has done for me lately but it would be WAYYY too long, and I don't know if I could count them all.

So I've been applying at any job and every job possible with no response or if there is one its that they aren't hiring. It's rough and depressing at times, but I am keeping my head high and doing what I can to get money here and there. God blessed me this week cause I get to house sit a family's house while they are gone. Its nice to be alone for a lil while. I love my brother and his family but come on who doesn't like the peace and quiet from time to time.

It's amazing to see God's plan for your life unfold. It's funny too how doors open when its the right time for the right thing. I still can't believe that I will be leading worship and over time even playing piano. It still just blows me away. After hearing no, or things never quite working out and if they do it's just not right, for years it's crazy to hear yes and things working with such ease. There is no way possible I couldn't give God the glory for everything. I would have never imagined that my dream would actually come true.  But that's my Daddy. Showing His love to his favorite daughter.   ;)

The longer I don't have a job the more I think that maybe I should just rely on God for my money and pursuing teaching piano. No one at the church plays and I know people who want to learn. I think it really could be a great opportunity for me. Plus I get REALLY excited when I think about teaching people piano. I've never gotten so excited about something like this before so I wouldn't be surprised if its a God thing. Which is freakin awesome in its self, to know your doing God's will for your life.

I've really been enjoying fasting. The word used to scare me but now it excites me actually. I fast on Mondays from food and its not easy but when I get hungry I think about how awesome it is that I get to honor my Father for everything He has done for me. It's nothing to skip 3 meals for a day. I'm also going to fast from facebook for February. I want to prepare my heart before I serve on the worship team for youth group and as well as on the Sunday morning team. Plus I think I spend wayyyyy too much time on facebook. It will be good to take a break and then when I get back on it won't be so time consuming, I hope lol

Song Lyrics

This is my life song. This is what gives me freedom. I love Fireflight!

Where are the people that accused me?
The ones who beat me down and bruised me
They hide just out of sight, can't face me in the light
They'll return but I'll be stronger

God I want to dream again, take me where I've never been
I wanna go there, this time I'm not scared
Now I am unbreakable, it's unmistakable
No one can touch me, nothing can stop me

Sometimes it's hard to just keep going
But faith is moving without knowing
Can I trust what I can't see to reach my destiny?
I want to take control but I know better

Forget the fear it's just a crutch
That tries to hold you back
And turn your dreams to dust
All you need to do is just trust

God I want to dream again, take me where I've never been
I wanna go there, this time I?m not scared
Now I am unbreakable, it's unmistakable
No one can touch me, nothing can stop me

twitterpated

Today was one of those days where I couldn't stop thinking bout that damn boy. He's just such a freakin CUTIE! arg... *sigh* oh well. Life goes on.

Anyways, besides being twitterpated, I got to chitchat with the Bestie today. I miss her... I can't wait for her to come see me in Reno!! It's gunna be UH-MAZINGGGGG!!!! But really, she is such a God send. Thankfully we have been able to keep in contact even though she's in Costa Rica.

I really wish I had a job... I hate job hunting. It's just annoying. I'm trying to be patient but it's really hard.... I'm kinda nervous how imma do goin back to work after not working for so long. I just pray God opens the right doors at the right time.

I love life & life loves me. Everything in the world makes me happy. :)

Just Random side notes

I have barely used my brights on my car since I've moved to Reno. I thought it was funny how I saw all the city light and thought it was pretty. Most people would like it darker to see the stars but I guess since I grew up under the stars seeing city lights is a nice change. lol On my drive home I actually did end up using my brights, I had forgotten how Bright they actually were haha.

So the other day I was thinking and I think the way a guy drives is either very attractive or a big turn off. For instance, if a guy is driving really reckless then I'm not gunna feel safe with him, there for would not like to have a long term relationship with him, especially if he takes chances and I am at risk. On the other hand if a guy is cautious and pays attention to what he's doin then I feel like I can trust him to take care of me and protect me.

I saw a bumper sticker the other day and fell in love with it. "Don't make abortion illegal, make it unnecessary." How awesome is that?! It's a great way to promote pro-life. It's not that it should be made illegal, it just should be made something that isn't necessary. There are so many other alternatives, the way to lower abortion rates is to convince people by love and care that abortion is NOT the best decision.

It's funny how the devil tries to attack you with the very things you used to beat yourself up about when you are serving God with everything you have. It's really cool to recognize them and turn in the opposite direction as well. That way you get to see God's hand at work in your life. Plus it's pretty awesome to see the devil lose. lol

Ups and downs

Well my bestfriend is now in Costa Rica until May... so sad but yet so exciting! I can't wait to see what God does in her life. It's gunna be amazing and I'm blessed to be apart of her life changing experience :) Good news is that she lives in an internet cafe so we still get to communicate through facebook and skype (Thank GOD for SKYPE!!!)

Some exciting news is that I can begin singing with the youth band beginning March 1st!! I'm pretty pumped. ALSO!!! Imma play piano with the Sunday worship team. I'm rusty but I should be fine with a lil bit of practice. I'm AMAZED at the opportunity to sing much less play piano. God has blessed me so much. I can't not recognize that this is all from Him.

Sadly, I'm still looking for a job. It's rough putting yourself out there every day and being rejected or told to go apply online. I'm sorry but picking people from their resume is lame. You have no idea who you're picking. I don't understand why people want to cut out the whole face to face process? I don't really think my resume is that impressive but I think I have a great personality that would win you over more.

I love living in Reno. I love my friends here. I love my church family.

New Year, new things

So I hate new years resolutions mainly because I have yet to actually make it a whole year with a resolution... Well the few I made this year have still yet to begin, lol. Imma start a lil late that way when I begin it'll just be a life change rather than a new years resolution.

Why do I keep getting stuck on how life would be different with a boyfriend or who that guy would be? The time I have right now with my Heavenly Father is the sweetest time I'll ever have in life. This is the only time I have alone with Him. It's sad that all I wanna do is spend time with a person who doesn't exist yet when I have an unlimited amount of time to spend with my Father who loves me more than anything else in the world and only wants the best for me. How selfish am I??

Rachel Farlow = THE BEST FRIEND IN THE WHOLE WIDE WORLD!!!! She is an incredible woman of God and it's only the beginning. I have NO idea what I would do without her. God has blessed me beyond belief with our friendship. She has meant so much to me. I am so sad that she is going to Costa Rica for 5 months but I can't wait to see and hear about everything God does and will do in her life. I moved across country and our friendship flourished, I wonder whats gunna happen when she moves to another country?

Life. It's quite a funny thing sometimes. I can see that God is gunna do alot in the future but I'm afraid that I'm gunna miss it from being lazy, scared of taking chances, or even that they aren't really gunna happen. All reasons of which that are complete bogus because as long as I keep my eyes on God things will work out all in His time and maybe even greater and bigger than I would have thought.

Well 2011, here we go! Ready or not!